Plain O' Jane

2007-06-23T00:09:00.000+08:00

All the pictures are up.

SAME PLACE!

I like taking pictures but I hate uploading them,such a chore.
Just feel like showing this!
RAHAHHAA

2007-06-22T01:01:00.000+08:00

PARDON ME !

BUT I AM LIKE SO OVER THE MOON. BUSINESS AND MANAGEMENT .
I MUST BE DREAMING .

YAY.

But then it will be purrrrfect if i paid 15.75 for my hostel application:(

NVM.
THEN, MY PARENTS WILL NOT HAVE TO MISS ME LIKE MAD!

2007-06-18T01:34:00.000+08:00

After like 18+ years, I finally tasted my first sip of guinness.

And it sucks!

2007-06-02T23:02:00.000+08:00

I wish i didn't have to live my "dream", today.
That 3 goals lead, that defeat, Deja vu.

I think it meant more than a match to some, but i couldn't make any difference. I can't comment much as I don't know the history. But one thing is for sure, I won't go like "WE MUST WIN XXXXX" or display animosity to the very team that brought me up.

It is weird how these people think.

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

2007-05-27T01:36:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday my bestbud!

I Hope you like the surprise party!

Planning a surprise party for her is easy peasy, she believes every single word/ lie you say.

but...
I am not quite sure if she is happy,
Just look at her expression.

SO . . . .

Must be because we refused to let her watch NSL .

It is like my birthday today. steamboat, games and mahjong.

HAHA.

2007-05-20T00:56:00.001+08:00

2007-05-08T22:36:00.000+08:00

Okay, I know this is stupid.

My uni interview letter disappeared and so I decided to not to appear for the interview altogether. I think it is fated.

pointless.

2007-05-06T23:53:00.000+08:00

I don't like the way things work. People come and people go. People talk a lot, talk a little less, talk a little and now they don't. Yes, people drift apart, but it is not like the continental drift, surely these people can do something about the drift. I don't like this drift. Yet ... yet i am too sick and tired to stop this drift. I guess the same goes for the rest too.

Okay, this entry is crap.

2007-05-02T00:24:00.000+08:00

Edmund, SEE I'm updating already larh!

Busy. Busy. Busy.
Monday - work and night tuition.
Tuesday - work
Wednesday - work and night tuition
Thursday - work
Friday - work and night netball training
Sunday - netball training

And Saturday is for catching up with friends and bestbud. Date me in advance for Saturdays or i'll be booked ;P You can always date me after work, near my workplace that is, for dinner. I'll show you famous crispy prata (jalan kayu's is a passe already) and tons of YUMMY stuff.

After months of unemployment, it feels great to get busy at first but now, I am tired. I haven't take up cooking classes for my restaurant:P, haven't tried to get a scooter license(or rather, persuade parents to allow me to), haven't tried so many things i wanted to.

And i am swayed by the results of my application, maybe i don't want a business course after all. Maybe i could go for something like becoming a project manager earning me more bucks. Then, i'll have more capital for my restaurant. Or maybe i could ace my education interview and be a teacher earning me a stable income.

Or maybe, just maybe i can die early, or very soon, so i don't have to worry about choices, about growing up and old....

Weird, but I wanna die young and happy.

2007-04-17T00:09:00.000+08:00

I wish you, you and everyone else knew what i was thinking.
Thoughts, too pleasant that it turns out fake when put into words.

So when i say nothing, you know i have something too nice to say.
(okay, most of the time)

2007-04-05T22:15:00.001+08:00

I like it like that.

A Series of Unfortunate Events.

2007-03-31T00:29:00.000+08:00

:(
The day actually started out great, raymond gave me brand new mouse and thumbdrive. Everything else was nice and sweet. I look forward to lunching everyday! They love good food, and so do I ! I like giggly ailing. I will miss her (though I only got to know her for 2 weeks)

Eugene came back after lunch.
Now i know why they say month end closing is shit.

He threw me 2 emails and told me to issue 2 vietnam cheque, on my own. Argghhh. Okay, after searching for like half an hour, he finally noticed I was lost. He came over, point to a few pages and ZOOMED back to his desk.
. . . . .
So the outcome was, i addressed to a wrong person and therefore cancelled one cheque. Not only that, i had to cancel my invoice because i didn't put it properly into the printer. my bad. Fortunately, he was cool and calm.

Next, he gave me invoices to key. I don't mind heavy workload as long as i know how to do it. But he came, said less than 2 sentence about how he want it to be done and
ZOOM.
I had to figure it out on my own. Redo like 5-6 times before i got it right. It is not that i don't dare to ask but i don't wanna be such a pest when he is so busy. I miss Joey. She is never too busy for me. Oh well, come back from honeymoon soon!

Then, someone keep asking me to help her update this , update that. Stop me from doing what i'm doing. Comment about the way i write my number 8. Nvm. I think she is just stressed out.

Then I had to rush for training, gobbled down my LJS meal in 15mins. Ran to the court. And was late. Had to run the 2.4k with the fastest two. I feel like an injured snail. I can't sweep. I feel lousy. I dont like to be centre. I have my reasons to catch with one hand. :(:(

And then, me , being the oversensitive me, over reacted again. I am tired already. If i am not included in the 'us', don't ask me to join you. It all don't matter to me , anymore.

Anyway, i seem to have lots of free stuff today. I got free concert tickets for 7apr. I always get free concert tickets dont I?

2007-03-25T00:53:00.000+08:00

Wall have ears.

Likewise for password protected site.

:)Animal family

2007-03-19T01:52:00.000+08:00

I dreamt someone told me to go buy 4D with XXXX . It was a voice calling me to remember those numbers! And guess what!?!?!???

STRIKE FIRST PRIZE!!!!!!!!

No, far from it.
I forgot the numbers =_="
But don't play play okay, when i was young i told my parents about the numbers i dreamt about and they strike 4D! :D Guess that will be the last time too.

Had Netball from 1-7 today and I fell on my left knee again. I only started going for training about a month ago and i already lost 1 and 1/2 toenails, injured my left knee. I can see more coming though. I have this feeling I am going to sprain my ankle soon. Just you wait.

And it was steamboat at yokesun's house:))

They all rushed to the dining table when i arrived at 745. I used to think Hungry ghost festival was in august.

The TOMYAM BASE WAS YUMYUM!

DESERTS; pudding and watermelon.

and we MJ-ed!

Look at eugene's arrangement of tiles and he is so proud of it, he named it "districts" .
I think it is the result of thinking too much about red light district huh?

Oh, eugene opened up to me today and I think he is such a sweet guy.
Okay, I have decided never ever to tease him again*

*promotion period valid till end of march.

SOLFEGGIO

2007-03-18T02:04:00.000+08:00

I'm impressed, SOLFEGGIO was good. :) CHEERS

esp. for the chairman LGS and best bud cum conductor cum concert mistress GET WELL SOON!

My eyesight is not perfect and that is actually good. Bad enough so i can't see nasty faces from far yet, good enough so i can turn and run when i see them approaching. I thought i was lightning for a second. Well, i don't know whether you call this holding on or letting go or maybe coward. Rahhh, i so need to rant, again. Maybe this time, with discretion.

My name is random and surname Lee.

2007-03-14T00:34:00.000+08:00

Randomly.

" a little red dot" what is the first thing that comes to your mind?

Oh quit being a racist already, it refers to Singapore.

Ask me about my lastest employment, and I'll tell you how a girl who never in her whole life tasted liquor, sold tiger beer. I used to think I shouldn't because of the fact that it is unhealthy, and the possibility of getting dead drunk. But now? Loser.

And will all of you stop thinking and missing me?
because I sneezed like 924734751 times yesterday?

Little henry:)

Oh, i still have 'umpiphobia' but i wonder if it would be any different umpiring primary school kids. So much more adorable and harmless.

And i may be hopping to LJ, blogspot is WOLS.

2007-03-08T00:09:00.000+08:00

Ongoing paper chase, only faster.

2007-03-06T01:44:00.000+08:00

RAHRAHRAH.

I feel nothing when I first saw my result. It is not worth celebrating, neither is it worth crying over. It is only when people compare that I feel it is inferior but when I compare it to my effort and ability, I'm satisfied. Glad i'm not with the typical RJC mindset of perfect score, or i wouldn't be alive now.

"NUS's business is hard to get in but NTU has a better business course. SMU will be a better place to study business but it'll burn a hole in your pocket"
You hear things like this and you go blur.

It doesn't matter what my results is as long as i get into a course i want. It doesn't matter whether i get into a course i want as long as i don't get into a course i dislike. It doesn't matter if i get into a course i dislike as long as i can earn big bucks for mummy and daddy. It doesn't matter if i cannot earn big bucks as long as mummy and daddy is happy and healthy. Yes, as long as mummy and daddy is happy and healthy.

Don't go green, go MOS

2007-02-28T04:41:00.000+08:00

Bestbud and me frequent mos burger so much so that we go Long John silver and speak mos language.

Bestbud: Change the drink to large ice milk tea.

Cashier: . . .

Me (slaps bestbud) : RAHH...ICE LEMON TEA

Cashier (giggles) : chilli or ketchup for you?

Me: Chilli and Mayonnaise :)

Bestbud: TARTAR LARH !

But then again....

MAHJONG

2007-02-26T03:03:00.000+08:00

I am out of the SPH job already. Idle that is, and they say ; the devil finds work for idle hand. And guess what? I got my idle hands glued on mahjong. No, animal family, I know what you're thinking. No, I am not stealing mahjong tiles and hiding it, not peeking into the tiles next to me, not throwing tiles around ,exposing tiles of others, not shaking the mahjong table or anything of that sort. I want to laugh though, I miss doing that and watching all your facial expression go @$%#@#! , eugene in particular.

I am buying PC mahjong games, borrowing mahjong games, playing online mahjong games and almost buying the actual mahjong tiles. Man, i can so see myself in 20 years time, plump ah soh at one corner of the mahjong table with my fellow ah sohs ( with ah soh perm) company shouting PONG, KONG, CHOW!

Lastest craze after bluff, a more crazy-craze but it will go away soon - i think

Being a "pessimist-extremist" may not be any bad, because most of the time the situation won't be as bleak and you end up feeling surprised and :) . Rather than being a "optimist-extremist", because most of the time the situation won't be that perfect and you end up being dejected. Maybe that is an excuse i give myself for being pessimistic. Whatever , it sounds logical doesn't it? I know you are convinced :p

But my life, being my pathetic life, the situation is always worse than expected no matter how already-pessimistic expectations i have earlier. Sad huh?

I thank you for thinking so highly of me, but i think it was an overestimation on your part.

2007-02-24T16:23:00.000+08:00

Like i was in heaven at one point of time, smacked back to hell at another.
Yesterday was finally back on earth.

It is a wonder how netball manipulates me.

JUST NAFF OFF.

2007-02-19T23:10:00.000+08:00

When you're the last to be informed of anything, that is when you know you don't matter.
When you are not included in the 'we', that is when you know you're not welcome.

That is just a formality isn't it?

I am tired.

You can't blame me, blame my attachments.

2007-02-18T02:24:00.000+08:00

from attachment springs grief
from attachment springs fear

For him who is free of attachment , there is no grief much less fear.

I'll push you away to stop the pain

2007-02-15T00:14:00.000+08:00

because i know you'll stand still and not move an inch.

This is the first time, I'm not celebrating vday, ever since 13.
How exciting!

Pessimism from the full-time pessimist.

2007-02-13T23:50:00.000+08:00

you think you know people but you're wrong.

Well, at least i know myself. I feel lousy.
No, I am.

Nothing to do with low self-esteem. It is reality, okay i can't deny that it is coupled with slight pessimism. God, give me more eyes so i can see what i need to. It doesnt matter if i look like a monster. Give me longer limbs so i can stretch. It doesnt matter if i look like octopus. Give me natural anabolic steroid so i won't get tired. It doesnt matter if i die early. Give me wonderful people so i wont have to face arrogant asses .

Or at the very least, grant me contentment.
Or maybe, god, i can tell you what i can give you, my pathetic life.
Life is about giving isnt it? So give me something!

God love everyone including me.
but maybe i'm just not God's favourite..

A loser, every bloody time.

2007-02-10T01:10:00.000+08:00

I felt like one hero last week and now, a fool. One big bloody fool.

It couldn't get any worse today. It couldnt get any worse this year. It must be due to the fengshui in my house that the monk warned me about.

I played like shit today and I played like shit today and I played like shit today and I played like shit today and I played like shit today and I played like shit today and I played like shit today and I played like shit today and I played like shit today and I played like shit today and I played like shit today and I played like shit today and I played like shit today and I played like shit today and I played like shit today and I played like shit today and I played like shit today and I played like shit today and I played like shit today and I played like shit today and I played like shit today and I played like shit today and I played like shit today.

And i don't like your stare, arrogant ass.

My vision is blurring, not because of the sting in my eyes, but the hours i spent in front of the computer. I'm turning blind. I think i need contact lenses badly and permanently. But i take hours to put it on and must always have bestbud to take it out for me.

Half of my big toe nail decided to leave me, alone with blood and pus. Yes I got you - Yucks.

As if it wasn't bad enough, some drunken had to step on my feet.

I hate it. One minute i am all the way up there and the next i'm falling flat on my face. It is times like this, i start to think life is so wonderful. Ha. Everytime when i feel great about everything, something have to come crashing in. Everytime when i feel i really like these place, these people, i start thinking twice the very next moment. Everytime when i feel i'm starting to excel in something, i slip and fall and fail.

Every bloody time.

I think i'm ageing . .

2007-02-07T19:15:00.000+08:00

Time flies - or maybe something faster to that effect.

Ahlong called and told me Dione gave birth a few weeks ago.
And Ahlong ,who used to be the morally upright ahbeng, is now a make up artist.

Times don't change. Men do.

I feel good, so good.

2007-02-03T01:31:00.000+08:00

I am so flattered by the comment.

How often do you get comments like "talented" and thats not just it, "most talented" .
I am on cloud nine and ten and maybe eleven and no, I don't want to land just yet.

Bear with me, I dont have many chances to feel this good.

WHEEEHEEEHEEEEEEHEEEE...

i dont mind living in self denial to feel this good every other day.

That is just so me.

2007-02-03T00:23:00.000+08:00

I love to eat.
I love to eat in the toilet.

Eat snake:)

Lost and FOUND!

2007-01-28T02:56:00.000+08:00

God has got my back though god is taking a roadtrip! I found IC, Cashcard, Atm card, American Express SC(lol), VIP card, Gift cards, Name cards in my mailbox :) God found another way to give me back the cash in the wallet.

Hooooooraaayyyyy~
Thank you Mom and Bestbud for keeping me in your prayers.

and Thank God.
(whoever you are)

TORTIAN

2007-01-27T02:45:00.000+08:00

TOR HUI TIAN IS MY BEST BUDD :)

She claims that i don't blog about her and even if i do, i don't ever use her real name.

TOR HUI TIAN .

She survived almost two decades of her life but she's so unspoilt and fresh. Her naivety is charming. She believes every single absurd lie although repeated umpteen times. She always here, there and everywhere for me. She sticks up for me like some bigshot politician yet when things are thrown at her, she whines like a baby. There's always me in her prayers. She's my best shopping khaki, best companion for job interviews, for fun and games, for some crazy prank, for buffet blah blah blah. Best companion for one to have. She never expected anything from me in return except for me to leave something at her tagboard :x

Now bestbud, don't doubt my love for you
:)

Jobs come in a bundle.

2007-01-25T02:35:00.000+08:00

don't they?

Today i'm offered -
admin cum public relation officer from Toshiba,
1 week temp promoter from recruit strategy,
temp bank admin from recruit express ,
some rude fella from careerhub offering recruit consultant(which i hung up with "sorry no bye!")
umpiring, umpiring and more umpiring.

And finally, this instructor position from focus adventure. This is the highlight, if i decide to take up this job, I will first have to pass 4-day basic instructor course at ... BINTAN! I don't care whether i pass the test or not because i smell fun! And what do they always say? the best things in life are free. Yet, i'm not all that naive. I doubt it will be as good as it seem.

Typical cynical me.

Give me back!

2007-01-23T17:28:00.000+08:00

my wallet, my IC, my Atm card, my cashcard , my pay!

:( God is taking a roadtrip and forgot about my back.

Things - some are not inclined to do.

2007-01-21T03:19:00.000+08:00

There are things that some are not inclined to do.

The thing for me, is umpiring. People keep rambling that all you need is more practice and that practice makes perfect. I can't bring myself to practise at the zonal tournament,at least not anymore. I don't want to do any injustice(anymore?). I don't want any team to lose when they're supposed to win. Forgive me - TKGS, SHS, HSC, PRC, PYSS CCSS for using you as my practice ground.

Furthermore, I don't want to be reprimanded by anyone on my umpiring, again.

In the end.

2007-01-17T02:24:00.000+08:00

In the end, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends

jobless !

2007-01-15T16:46:00.000+08:00

Shame on me. I just got rejected for greenetweed admin and god knows why. Thanks to none other than myself, that i'm still( after 3months) unemployed. I was idling after A's because i had this umpire course smacked in the middle of december. I swear if i didnt go for that course, i'll be happily working with yokesun now. I was called to umpire for daisy tan last sat and now, zonal competition but hell, i dont have the guts to do it. So much for taking and passing the umpire course. I was offered to give tuition but i thought i might not be free if i was ever given a permanent job. I was to go for this Sony interview and i backed out last minute because i was too tired the day after chalet. Bestbud friend offered me a job but i'm so choosy(and i can't help it) , i want an admin job for more exposure and at least paying 6 an hour. No relief teaching too, schools seem to have more than enough teachers.

GOD SAVE ME:(
i think its structural unemployment now.

Absence

2007-01-15T00:36:00.000+08:00

Absence abates a moderate passion and intensifies a great one - as the wind blows out a candle but fans fire into flame.

1oQ

2007-01-15T00:33:00.000+08:00

forgot to mention,

thank you AngkhayBoon for the SukiSushi treat and the previous few as well!

Hope to thank you more in future ;P

BLUFF

2007-01-13T22:08:00.000+08:00

I love to play bluff! :)
Yesterday was good! Another one of my crash-tp day with bestbud and her bestie. We played blackjack and bluff in the library. SOURskittles for the loser ,though it was initially for them to stay awake while studying. Nasty ec wanted me to lose and so did i wanted her to. Bestbud was super lost, she thinks shes playing BLURf not bluff! Blur- as always. But in the end, bestbud won:) all thanks to ec huh? Blackjack at the bus stop was as fun too :) I was only slapped twice *smirks* I love to hang out with them larh - bestbud and her bestie, bestbud and edmund. They tickle! Of course, i love to be with bestbud all the time.

Today was good, hmm.. i mean SukiSushi with animal family was good. It has been so long since i walked off just like that. That was done without a second thought but now, i think i should have made that move earlier. I saw unwillingness in their eyes or was it not? Did she not see that in them? Maybe i gotten it all wrong. But she should have seen BOREDOM written all over my face. Oh man, EUGENE where did you go when i need you!? You saw it coming , didn't you?

TRY it

2007-01-13T21:53:00.000+08:00

DO NOT READ AHEAD, JUST DO IT.
IT TAKES ABOUT 3 MINUTES - WORTH A TRY
1st. Get PEN and PAPER
2nd. WHEN CHOOSING NAMES, MAKE SURE THEY ARE REAL PEOPLE THAT YOU ACTUALLY KNOW
3rd. GO WITH YOUR FIRST INSTINCTS !!!!! Very important for good results.

ONE LINE AT THE TIME
DON`T READ AHEAD otherwise YOU WILL RUIN THE FUN.

1. On a blank sheet of paper, WRITE NUMBERS 1 to 11 in a COLUMN on the LEFT.
2. BESIDE the NUMBERS 1 & 2 ,
WRITE DOWN ANY 2 NUMBERS YOU WANT.

3. BESIDE the NUMBERS 3 & 7 ,
WRITE DOWN THE NAMES OF TWO MEMBERS OF THE OPPOSITE SEX.
CAUTION: DO NOT LOOK AHEAD or IT WILL NOT TURN OUT RIGHT

4. WRITE ANYONES NAME
(like FRIENDS or FAMILY...)next to 4, 5, & 6 .

DON`T CHEAT OR YOU`LL BE UPSET THAT YOU DID

5. WRITE down FOUR SONG TITLES in 8, 9, 10, & 11

The keys:
1. THE NUMBER of PEOPLE YOU MUST TELL ABOUT THIS GAME is found in
SPACE 2
2. THE PERSON IN SPACE
3 IS THE ONE YOU LOVE
3. THE PERSON YOU LIKE but your relationship CANNOT WORK is in
SPACE 7
4. YOU CARE MOST about the PERSON you put in
SPACE 4
5. THE PERSON YOU NAME IN NUMBER 5 IS THE ONE WHO
KNOWS YOU VERY WELL.
6. THE PERSON YOU NAMED IN 6 IS YOUR
LUCKY STAR
7. THE SONG IN 8 IS THE SONG THAT MATCHES WITH THE
PERSON IN NUMBER 3
8. THE TITLE IN 9 IS THE SONG FOR THE
PERSON IN 7
9. THE 10 TH SPACE IS THE SONG THAT TELLS YOU MOST ABOUT
YOUR MIND
10. AND 11 IS THE SONG TELLING HOW YOU
FEEL ABOUT LIFE
11. NUMBER 1 IS YOUR
LUCKY NUMBER

Its superduper true, for some larh. Huitian knows me best and konnie kao! you're my lucky star! harh!
1.27
2.23
3.lester
4.felicia
5.huitian:)
6.konnie:)
7.leonard
8.i'd rather
9.please don't tell her
10.colours everywhere
11.obviously

.

2007-01-08T17:17:00.000+08:00

the resemblance i don't want to be reminded of.

give me some space, some time, and i'll weep and bleed.

2007

2007-01-04T13:54:00.000+08:00

And it is finally 2 0 0 7.

2006 was zoooooming fast, must be the A levels that i slogged so much, i forgot about time. And now i can forget about rewarding results.

And I didn't mention, I am now a cadet umpire! yes i passed the test. I didnt feel exhilarated when i got to know the results. My performance I thought was really bad. Some deserving ones didnt pass. I went to ask the instructor and she said she felt insulted. I said it wasn't my intention although i really thought it was someone being biased because i played under her club in the past. Well, whatever the case, I think i am still not gonna umpire anytime soon. Even if they say it is compulsory to umpire for the Diasy tan carnival , around the 7Jan? and even if i am so jobless and needa money, i just wont do it. But i'll be looking forward to 7Jan, class chalet:) Fun, i hope.

I am still umemployed:( Bedok town doesn't need any relief teachers. Singtel decided against me. Its okay, i'll now live on the pathetic eagles award. I now hate to travel. Like Jok says, it is now *ti* instead of *ti-di*. I needa get a license, not car but scooter. Because i can't afford a car, scooter is more reasonable. HAA. Judging at my financial situation now, i cannot even afford the wheels. Hmm.. maybe i can afford the mirrors....

Can you imagine me being the MC for a band concert? No right? com'on somebody save me and say you want to be the MC! Okay i admit it'll be a good experience but i'm scared stiff just the thought of it. Anyway, it'll be on 17March2007! If you dont mind, please save me! Edmanda and tortian , i prefer to watch you perform from the cushioned seats:)

birthday.

2006-12-28T12:36:00.000+08:00

Birthday didn't turn out that bad.

Thanks to YokeSun- how she could put up with my temper and keep giving alternatives. I love Yokesun :)) and so will i love moomoo.

Celebrated my birthday with mahjong, pokemon monopoly, and them. I miss those crazytimes at kb house and how we always end up turning it upside down. Too bad we can no longer do that now. Its good to relive this feeling albeit without the company of our all time favourite ,X-men. And it is also birthdays that you(or I) realise there are actually 3 groups of people.

1. Those who came into your life , left and never return.
2. Those who came into your life , left but always 'return' on your birthday and other occasions.
3. Those who came into your life, and will always stay (or will they?)

Or maybe this is just another poor representation and that i think too much.

Anyway, my birthday went like this...

the cheenamonopoly-
just look at kb's, the super outcast. Eugene and me keep flicking it elsewhere.LOL

Mahjong:) and the highlight of the day that sent us laughing for the rest of the day.
- "GANG!" (insidejoke) eugene nv fail to make us laugh unintentionally.

FOOD!

We had icecream. and so did eugene with his very first icecream with a biscuit.

and my hellokitty cake. hellokitty? but what to do, i have friends who love that mouth-less'creature.

the link to the birthday pics

This year i decided not to have a "thankyou" list like i always do but 2006's definitely longer than2005's. So thank you all who wished me, surprised me or was there with me.

i dont need presents, but presence.

2006-12-23T00:37:00.000+08:00

I'm losing my grip, again.
maybe they are right,
when i can't have things my way,
I'll make everyone just as unhappy.

I hate birthdays. There's always something, somebody, to ruin it and i can't find the power to reverse or change it. Looks like my birthday wish is not gonna come true again anyway. Everyone can't be happy, including me. Maybe I'm too greedy to wish for everyone to be happy. I think I shall never wish for what i want in future.

But at least ,at 12am, Bestbud surprised me with that oreo cake at my doorstep.
Thank you bestbud for the super sweet surprise. (shock at first - you know why) You really caught me off guard.

SUPERRRR RANDOM

2006-12-20T00:50:00.000+08:00

I'm going super random now, rushing to go to bed. I took 16 bus and 4 mrt rides today, yes in a single day. I'm so damn proud of it and kiasu me, made it all worthwhile to purchase the hybrid concession. I am goddamn pissed that we're only informed at 700am that the test is postponed.At that point of time, i was already at dhoby ghaut. I woke up at 500am just to make sure i make it on time and this is what i get. So hell, i'm gonna wake up at 5am tml. And dont remind me of the umpire course/test, i'm quite sure i'll flung it real bad. Thank you bestbud, for accompanying me. I was approached by this IMIPTELTD, claiming that they are some model agency, asking me to go for interview. I went online to check and realised that it may be some kind of fraud(obviously, who wants the short and ugly?) and mighty me, made an appointment with them today and put aeroplane:) . They deserve it. So friends, be careful of this company.
I got a call from recruit express today and offered a job at singtel, pay of 7dollars/hr. Looks like i'm gonna give up being a relief teacher at btss because i still have not summon enough courage to call the school. I know my birthday is coming and i have no clue what to do so don't ask, not to celebrate it is not exactly my plan but i'm sick of what goes on for these past 17years. I'll appreciate if you plan it for me. I finally bought a pair of shoes, though not my favourite golden one but it is on 50% discount so its okay. I'm so shagged and i'm going to bed now. Goodnight world.

Kitty flamingo !

2006-12-20T00:41:00.000+08:00

Eugene said, " if you want it to rain, keep boiling water at home!" .

I think he boiled kettles and kettles of water these few days.
As much as i tease eugenewongbaoxin, i love him to bits. Yo'mma sister!

dedicated to bestbud

2006-12-18T12:41:00.000+08:00

Thanks for always being here , there and everywhere for me.
I know you'll become one big kanchiongspider after reading the entry before this but i prefer not to talk about that face to face you know:)

and she is the only one who knows, icecream will make me forgive even the greatest sin on earth!

Confrontation finally.

2006-12-18T11:59:00.000+08:00

Is it really me and my hostility that made the distance?
When all is lost, like a point of no return, should you give hope that may risk greater disappointment?
I'm always petty and looking back in past, because there isnt any future for me to see.
Will piecing this broken pieces together now , be too late?

I fear.
Coward me.

Umpire course.

2006-12-17T13:02:00.000+08:00

There is no other better word to describe this week than - netball.

Umpire course was an eye-opener. You get to meet real arrogant people that thinks she is just so intelligent that the rest are of a lower class because she is from HC - High Class she thinks.

You're ignored.

High Class Idiots i think. Of course, not all of them. I have nice humble HCI friends that go extra miles to help me too. Anyway, most of the people in the course are sincere and friendly :)
Not just getting to know the people, but a new perspective of things. I used to complain about umpires that they are blind and biased. I remember the KC and BTS netball match was super outrageous! They are so freaking dirty and none of the umpire ever did noticed. Even now, they still make the BTS team terribly annoyed by their dirty moves. That match, I screamed and shouted at the umpire. Oh terrible terrible me! Now i promise never to ever do it again(if i have the chance to play on court) Umpiring a match is so difficult, at least to me. You gotta do your protocol, run at the right time, see the right thing, not the after movement, blow the whistle loud , say the infringement in the correct order with the correct sign, remember the centre pass...

I decided to be tested on next tuesday instead of yesterday. Three cheers for LIQI because she passed! she is now a cadet umpire! :)) well, for me and chinping it is tuesday which i already know my results - Big F. It would really really take a miracle for me to pass, i mean it. I ,almost at every point in time, feel like giving up. Sometimes, during the course, my mind will drift away to thinking i really suck at this despite how much i try. I feel so hopeless and pointless staying on. I can feel tears stinging my eyes but thats all about where it must stop or risk looking like a crybaby. I know exactly how cp feel. Its okay, i don't go off with nothing. And its already enough i passed the theory test with 86 :) . Been a long long time, like 2 years, since i last gotten an A1 or A. Haaa... but everyone did almost just as well if not better. Chinping with a whooooping 93 ! :))

2 GD NEWS.

2006-12-07T15:39:00.000+08:00

I've got two good news. I was invited to play for Bedok CSC by coach again, on the condition that i commit (she couldnt emphasize this more) . I always wanted to play netball again after JC and i thought of Bedok CSC, but i didnt gave her a yes yet probably due to the phobia of fitting in. Second, my relief teacher application is finally approved and i guess they never really did reject anyone. eleven dollars per hour! I want to go back bedok town! :) I hope not to do any teaching, just taking over CME classes. Oh well , fat hope. Off to the Nations Netball again! I hope to get one of the shirts , netballs or mini netballs thrown my way today!!

Rich them and poor me.

2006-12-04T03:15:00.000+08:00

I can't get myself a job because i signed up for the umpire course in december that last for one whole week. I need money to shop, badly. Oh, money for that new found love at Topshop, that pair of shoes that cost more than 50bucks. I can't put myself to deplete even more funds from my already-minute-reserves when there is no sign of upcoming crediting soon. (only further debit)

Sometimes, I really wish i am filthy rich. Wouldn't it be nice?

I'll be in Hawaii with the 3S'(or 4S?)- sun,sand and sea now.I'll have my own limo to travel in (or own chauffeur if i failed driving) so i dont have to bother about what the last train would be and not miss out the fun. I'll have the cash to get whatever i need, have a chocolate with a thousand leaves everyday, to be able to shop till i drop and still not stop, to be able to get my newfound love each and everytime without having to consider, to be able to walk up to any beauty salon for face, body and hair services , also to go to hair spa at fusionhair. I'll be able to donate to the needy more often. I'll be able to surprise my friends and make their day by "everything is on me today". Be able to throw parties anywhere, anytime i want. I can have a restaurant that i can call my own!And most importantly (at this moment) , i dont have to find a job and (*smacks myself back to reality* ) having to swallow this bitter pill now.

Nevermind, if i were rich, i wouldn't have met my chaichee buds, wouldnt have got into bedoktown because my mother wouldnt have seen that skirt or maybe have better taste, wouldnt have met animal family, wouldn't have met bestbud, wouldnt have found love in netball, wouldn't have met those nasty people that made me stronger, wouldn't have met lovely , adorable teachers that i'll remember for life, wouldn't have listen to mrs ong to go nanyang, wouldnt have met nanyang endorphins.... (maybe wouldnt FAIL A LEVELS! damn)
*touch whatever wood in sight*
I played so much online games , i got bored , went shopping i got sick because i'm dead broke, and so i switched to reading. I'm done with If Andy warhol had a girlfriend, double shot(a must read) and currently PS, i love you in 3 days? Boy! am i proud of myself. Of course, that was done reading all night, only sleeping at like 9am.

Tomorrow i'm going for french lecture! crashing tp! ( yah okay, like what's new)

Me and my fats.

2006-12-04T02:51:00.000+08:00

CHOCOLATE WITH A THOUSAND LEAVES.

MUDPIE

That adds up to a few more pounds, higher risk of heart diseases, kidney problems but I didn't wish I hadn't overindulged . Blame it on my sweet tooth.

<3 Nanyang endorphins.

2006-11-29T19:00:00.000+08:00

I know it is already half a month gone from the trauma of A level and here i am, blogging what happened just after that. Yes, Yes, I'm Super lagged. It was dining at pizza hut with nanyang endorphins, like finally. We managed to get together despite cheryl having to meet twin, zoe terribly sick and shulian whose paper is still not over at that point of time.(now it is :) cheers for moo) And i am still all sulky about the pizza hut coupons that i lost, we could be eating free drumlets , calamari rings...

and after taking this video, i realised, they are not only "a chemical naturally released in the brain to reduce pain, and which in large amounts can make you feel relaxed and/or energetic"(endorphins) but they make me laugh, over and over again.

Cheryl flirts.

and zoe - jealous.

Our distorted pizza, like gingerbreadman!

Sick zoe, with 2 jackets -hers and mine.

Shulian and me

and american express-ed. lol

more lighthearted entries.

2006-11-26T16:33:00.000+08:00

I hope never to blog about damned issues here again, at least not so often.
I'll refrain from and do remind me not to .